My mother passed away last night at 10:45 pm after a lengthy battle with COPD and diabetes. I'm at a loss for words right now for the first time in awhile and don't know what to say. One hand I am sad she passed but on the other am happy she isn't suffering anymore. I haven't cried yet and instead had my guitar and music do my grieving.
Instead of flying for the funeral, I am planting a tree in her honor and am having a celebratory mass for her on her birthday.
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I'm terribly sorrry to hear that. :(
That tree is a wondeful meaningful idea.
That tree is a wondeful meaningful idea.
Oh I'm soooo sorry for your loss! That's terrible!
I am really sorry. :( That's horrible. The tree is a very nice way to remember her by, though. Sorry again. :(
That's horrible to hear. I'm sorry. :(
Losing your mother is like losing apart of you. Just remember, the one thing you'll never lose is the memories you two had together and your love for her.
I bet she's looking down on you now, looking after you, like she did when she was still on earth. :)
Though saying this, I am deeply sorry for your lose.
I bet she's looking down on you now, looking after you, like she did when she was still on earth. :)
Though saying this, I am deeply sorry for your lose.
Thanks guys for being here for me, I appreciate it very much. Like I said in first post, I am still at a loss for words.
The last month was very schizophrenic personally. I have been happy with my success at work (record store I work at), very happy with my life in Florida and the fact I have my dad, grandfather and aunt with me in Florida. I am also happy that I got tickets to Roger Waters and Rush but then losing my mom just is heartbreaking. I got wind of her passing after I woke up at 2:45 pm on April Fools Day. At first when My dad told me, as I woke up, one part of my brain thought it was a sick April Fool joke but then I could tell he was serious. Most of my friends (save two, one who just had a baby and the other who became estranged because of her overprotective boyfriend) and the siblings from my dad's first marriage (my fourth older sister Jocelin and oldest brother Shawn) have called me right back as did my biological older brother JJ. My oldest half-sister Toni and second older half-brother Micahel from my mom's first marriage (her first husband passed away in 1972 and the siblings of her deceased frist husband blamed my mom for the death of her first husband), on the other hand, had grown estranged from as they physically and mentally abused me and did some things to my dad which I haven't really forgiven them for. My other two older sisters Tina and Tania (whom we share the same mother) are respectful that I grieve alone away from all of the drama.
What has gotten me through today and prevented me from weeping was the music I cranked today (I played Queen's The Show Must Go On and Who Wants to Live Forever as part of my memorial tribute) and fond memories I have of her. I did get to talk to her a few weeks before she passed and told her that I loved her and said goodbye when the call ended. I am at peace with myself that I at least got a chance to say goodbye, when the majority of my siblings/half-siblings didn't and I am forging ahead with my moving and tree planting (which will be in my mom's memory).
David Gilmour said it all on the title track to On an Island and I quote "Dreamers may leave but they're here ever after" end quote. That album has pulled me through in the last year as I have lost my grandmother and mother in the space of three years. As the Bible reminds us "We are not promised tomorrow" and to enjoy the loved ones and friends while we can.
The last month was very schizophrenic personally. I have been happy with my success at work (record store I work at), very happy with my life in Florida and the fact I have my dad, grandfather and aunt with me in Florida. I am also happy that I got tickets to Roger Waters and Rush but then losing my mom just is heartbreaking. I got wind of her passing after I woke up at 2:45 pm on April Fools Day. At first when My dad told me, as I woke up, one part of my brain thought it was a sick April Fool joke but then I could tell he was serious. Most of my friends (save two, one who just had a baby and the other who became estranged because of her overprotective boyfriend) and the siblings from my dad's first marriage (my fourth older sister Jocelin and oldest brother Shawn) have called me right back as did my biological older brother JJ. My oldest half-sister Toni and second older half-brother Micahel from my mom's first marriage (her first husband passed away in 1972 and the siblings of her deceased frist husband blamed my mom for the death of her first husband), on the other hand, had grown estranged from as they physically and mentally abused me and did some things to my dad which I haven't really forgiven them for. My other two older sisters Tina and Tania (whom we share the same mother) are respectful that I grieve alone away from all of the drama.
What has gotten me through today and prevented me from weeping was the music I cranked today (I played Queen's The Show Must Go On and Who Wants to Live Forever as part of my memorial tribute) and fond memories I have of her. I did get to talk to her a few weeks before she passed and told her that I loved her and said goodbye when the call ended. I am at peace with myself that I at least got a chance to say goodbye, when the majority of my siblings/half-siblings didn't and I am forging ahead with my moving and tree planting (which will be in my mom's memory).
David Gilmour said it all on the title track to On an Island and I quote "Dreamers may leave but they're here ever after" end quote. That album has pulled me through in the last year as I have lost my grandmother and mother in the space of three years. As the Bible reminds us "We are not promised tomorrow" and to enjoy the loved ones and friends while we can.
i'm sorry for your loss. you need a hug. *hug*
I'm so sorry to hear that. But you're right at least she isn't suffering and you will always remember her
So sorry to hear about your loss :(
I'm feeling sad for you and I hope someday you'll be happy again.
big hug my dear!My mam took a bad turn on april fools day too. She was after giving blood to the donor clinic, she came home and collapsed.Taken to hospital, it took her two hours to regain consciousness (sp?) she's still not great and doctors still dunno whats wrong with her.Fingers crossed everything is ok :(
I'm very sorry for your loss. My mom has COPD and I've lost 3 close family members so I identify with you.
All I can say is that in time the sadness goes away and is replaced by good memories. You've just got to hang in and deal with it however you need to and it will get easier.
All I can say is that in time the sadness goes away and is replaced by good memories. You've just got to hang in and deal with it however you need to and it will get easier.
hope you dont mind me asking, whats COPD?
sorry for losing your mom man, that really sucks. i dont wanna say im sorry, since its a cliche, but be happy shes rockin out with freddie at least! lucky! she got to meet him before us -_- :P
sorry for losing your mom man, that really sucks. i dont wanna say im sorry, since its a cliche, but be happy shes rockin out with freddie at least! lucky! she got to meet him before us -_- :P
sorry to hear this