i hate where i live, i hate the fact that i know im going to get stuck in something i wont like, and im worried my dreams are crushed because ive been relying too long on "bandmates" to give me confidence.
i realized that i have no confidence because i dont know how/what to do about this by myself. im still a nobody. and i hate my voice. yet its the only talent i guess i have.
wtf, life? i wanna live in my head again.
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Hi, Lady Nyx!
I hope you're feeling better.
Albeit never having met you in person, you come across here as a very sweet, upbeat and smart person.
For instance, it may be the case that you're being unfair with yourself by saying that your voice is your only talent. You have commented on having a very good ear for music - which few people have and is a wonderful talent - and playing some hard songs on the guitar. You do seem to have a knack for arts and music - and I think that if you keep dedicating yourself to it, if that's really what you wanna do, good opportunities will come up.
You may hate your voice, ok - but if you take a hindsight view of what people have said about it, I'm sure you're going to find among your memories many instances of people praising your voice or other talents you have which may seem to you so natural that you don't even regard them as such.
When we feel sad we have these feelings, but these are the impressions which usually don't match the reality. It's a distorted picture taken in a given moment. You're lucky that you hate your voice when you're sad - when I'm sad, I hate everything in me, from "my head down to my toes". :-)))
Anyway, I hope you feel better. :op
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[waiting Joxer hug you first in order to avoid turning it into rugby lol]
JoxerTheDeityPirate · Member since
^put the kettle on as im still hugging :-]
JoxerTheDeityPirate · Member since
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Screw Australian football. They keep making the rules wimpier and most of the teams are a fucking joke. And to add insult to the injury, they want to make MORE teams in the competition!
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Fucking waste of time.
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ive never understood the fascination of it to anyone,especially the VERY tight shorts.
in womens volleyball they are essential [otherwise no one would watch] but not on an Aussie bloke holding odd shaped balls :-[
anyway,im now paying £15 for the next 2 months for that crap as Setanta have sod all else to show apart from poker which is as much a 'sport' as bass fishing is
Mr Mercury · Member since
Feck me - Egypt 1 Italy 0.
Italy never turned up then.
JoxerTheDeityPirate · Member since
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Feck me - Egypt 1 Italy 0.
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you're as good as me for predicting footie scores :-]
Lady Nyx · Member since
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i hate reality -_-
i hate where i live, i hate the fact that i know im going to get stuck in something i wont like, and im worried my dreams are crushed because ive been relying too long on "bandmates" to give me confidence.
i realized that i have no confidence because i dont know how/what to do about this by myself. im still a nobody. and i hate my voice. yet its the only talent i guess i have.
wtf, life? i wanna live in my head again.
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Hi, Lady Nyx!
I hope you're feeling better.
Albeit never having met you in person, you come across here as a very sweet, upbeat and smart person.
For instance, it may be the case that you're being unfair with yourself by saying that your voice is your only talent. You have commented on having a very good ear for music - which few people have and is a wonderful talent - and playing some hard songs on the guitar. You do seem to have a knack for arts and music - and I think that if you keep dedicating yourself to it, if that's really what you wanna do, good opportunities will come up.
You may hate your voice, ok - but if you take a hindsight view of what people have said about it, I'm sure you're going to find among your memories many instances of people praising your voice or other talents you have which may seem to you so natural that you don't even regard them as such.
When we feel sad we have these feelings, but these are the impressions which usually don't match the reality. It's a distorted picture taken in a given moment. You're lucky that you hate your voice when you're sad - when I'm sad, I hate everything in me, from "my head down to my toes". :-)))
Anyway, I hope you feel better. :op
Hug (2)
[waiting Joxer hug you first in order to avoid turning it into rugby lol]
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hey there-
this all stems from the fact that i had a wonderful time in europe and came back to the terrible reality that there is really NOTHING where i live. my original lack of confidence is back, as im back in my original place before i left (if that makes sense). basically i predicted my feelings to coming back exactly as they turned out (no, its not a self fufilling prophesy, i just knew what i left with and knew what i was in forwhen i got back).
i SHOULD be happy right now! im graduating this year, with a bachelors in languages. i have a question mark of a year (2010) which gives me a chance
to do whatever the hell i want! but the one thing that i believe kept me going (Music) was my band that i have struggled to keep together this whole time. it was supposed to "save me" from real life, or so i hoped. now i have nothing. and i cant do this by myself.
i realized its not going anywhere, and ive been living in my head this whole time thinking these talented people would take me somewhere, but in reality
they have their heads up their asses and arent going nowhere. and now i have to start from square one. its a huge dissapointment because its the only thing that really kept me happy- and it was all basically a failiure/farce. now i realize i have to use my "back up" plan which i dreaded using.
as for hating my voice- its not what others have said. its what i think of it anyway. its not what i want it to be and im frustrated. i never give a shit of what others think of it- im my own worst critic, so what i think at the end of the day matters most.
im just kinda lost on what to do now. im just trying to get a job so i can make ends meet, and not freak out once school is over.
Lady Nyx · Member since
im mostly just scared that this is a pivotal (sp?) point in my life where i could be stuck in something im unhappy with for the rest of my life. i will end up being stuck with commitments that will tether me into this place forever, and i wont have room to blossom as the musician i want to be.
i know its totally up to me on what happens in life, but when you look around you, and you dont see the possibililty, its terrifying. i thought i had the possiblity to be in a band, because these people approached ME and TOLD me they wanted to do this! i guess they didnt want it that badly. i gave them one too many chances believing they would get serious, but here it is.
im 21. i know i have my life ahead of me. im scared of waking up one day, 30 years old, and still being stuck in a place i dont want. it might be silly of me to think that, but ive seen it happen to so many people. i can only hope that fear will drive me as far away from that as possible.
john bodega · Member since
You're 21?? [/QUOTE] [/QUOTE]No way are you stuck!!! Never let anyone tell you any different; there's always something else you can do. It might not be a good idea of course but that's life.[/QUOTE]
JoxerTheDeityPirate · Member since
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im mostly just scared that this is a pivotal (sp?) point in my life where i could be stuck in something im unhappy with for the rest of my life. i will end up being stuck with commitments that will tether me into this place forever, and i wont have room to blossom as the musician i want to be.
i know its totally up to me on what happens in life, but when you look around you, and you dont see the possibililty, its terrifying. i thought i had the possiblity to be in a band, because these people approached ME and TOLD me they wanted to do this! i guess they didnt want it that badly. i gave them one too many chances believing they would get serious, but here it is.
im 21. i know i have my life ahead of me. im scared of waking up one day, 30 years old, and still being stuck in a place i dont want. it might be silly of me to think that, but ive seen it happen to so many people. i can only hope that fear will drive me as far away from that as possible.
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*still hugging* :-p
JoxerTheDeityPirate · Member since
looks as if the seagulls have been using my windows as target practice this morning...
its_a_hard_life 26994 · Member since
I hope one day one of my friends gets fucked in the face for his behaviour. OUT OF FUCKING ORDER.
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Going cinema with my friends today!!!!! YAY. :) [/QUOTE]
JoxerTheDeityPirate · Member since
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I hope one day one of my friends gets fucked in the face for his behaviour. OUT OF FUCKING ORDER.
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I'm thinking of hiring a dude who'll do it for me. XD lol jks.
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Going cinema with my friends today!!!!! YAY. :)
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if its Transformers you're watching then take earplugs..its LOUD! VERY LOUD!!
Lady Nyx · Member since
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I hope one day one of my friends gets fucked in the face for his behaviour. OUT OF FUCKING ORDER.
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I'm thinking of hiring a dude who'll do it for me. XD lol jks.
Going cinema with my friends today!!!!! YAY. :)
oh my, what happened?!
Lady Nyx · Member since
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You're 21??
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No way are you stuck!!! Never let anyone tell you any different; there's always something else you can do. It might not be a good idea of course but that's life.
and i refuse to accept that mentality :) i know what i want to do and am meant to do, the problem is its such a gamble. i just want certainty. theres nothing else in life i want to do. its very conflicting.
