Recovered legacy thread 1180557

i want my hat back :-[ *sobs*

ps,Beata,we had more than drinky in your name yesterday at Hyde Park ;-]

right,im off to bed after nearly 48 hours of debauchery,decadence and Gene Simmons' bass guitar :-p

cheers,Jesska & Steph that was a day none of us will ever forget [esp if my hat incident at Paddington/Bakerloo Line ends up on the news!]

xx

Yay!  I'm back online!

All right... it's weekend and I'm taking a break from work. SO, my plans? Fucking writing songs. I got my piano back into my apartment, so I can write songs on it once again. I'm excited about it, doll faces.

I hung out with Chris and his girlfriend, Casey. Chris is doing better... no more drugs, and he's not a drunk anymore. Casey is like the perfect lady for him. Hopefully he doesn't fuck the relationship up. He's on 5 years of probation for breaking into a lumber yard and then going into the owners house and stealing alcohol. He is only 20, so he's not the age to drink yet, so he got in deep shit. He even went to jail for 20 days. At least he's not on drugs anymore, and I'm glad he's not drinking so much either.

I talked to my friend Ryan, I sort of forgot to tell him I moved into a new apartment... ha. It just never crossed my mind to tell him, and he was looking for the street to my old apartment last night, lol. He wants to visit some time. Uncle Pete's friend, Henry, is staying here. I guess he's my friend too. Though he reminds me a lot of my Dad when he says "Go to bed, like normal people. Normal people don't stay up for three days at a time!"... oh well.

I was going to go to the bar last night, a gal I know invited me and it was her 21st birthday. But, I decided against it. I don't drink much and I'd of ended up drunk. I only drink vodka or something like that. Didn't want to cause a scene, and chances are, I would of ended up thinking she's a psycho bitch. I always think that about people nowadays. I know I'm a psycho prick, but I don't like psycho's at all... not even myself.

I'm trying to stop getting high all the time, but it's hard to stop. I'm just as bad as others because of it. I'm addicted to a drug (not weed), and I know I need to stop fucking around and go to the doctors and get help. I got a counseling appointment Tuesday, and I want to make an appointment at the Health Center to check on my liver.

I cleaned my whole apartment and it looks great. I saw Gavyn's first painting hanging on the wall, the first time since Jess took him to California, and I cried seeing it. I talked to her a few hours ago, and this is the convo basically

Gavyn: "mum! mum!"
Jessica: "Yes, Gavyn?"
Gavyn: "Bye bye! Bye bye!"
Jessica: "Okay, bye bye, but where are you going?"
Gavyn: "Dada's! Dada's!"

It's so sad and sweet. I cried just knowing it. She had him leave me a voice mail yesterday morning and it was so sweet and he learns so quickly. I'm very proud of Gavyn. Jessica said she'll be bringing him home soon, within a month, hopefully. Jessica wanted to re-form our relationship, and she was worried about me because of my fucking stupid parents worried about my addictions and the fact that I'm not eating. Jess said I need to stop that, and that she's worried, and that she loves me, and wants to re-form our relationship and start all over. I told her no, because she's hurt me too much. I also told her I can't deal with her yelling all the time, and I said I'm not denying ever going back to her, but for now, I'm doing better as I am. Work work work.

come on Everton!



off to the beach for an hour though before the footie starts [got to make the use of the 25 degree gorgeous sunshine while it lasts]

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[b]Sweet Insanity wrote: [/b]

[i]"You can't tell anyone how you pray to die
With a life so typical and sane
They don't care if you come to them and cry
So you shoot the love into your vein
Within a second you no longer feel the pain
Drowing in blood
Drowing in blood"[/i][/QUOTE]
How does one "drow" in blood?

Me and my bf are over for good....
Yeah, he said all this crap about how I "hurt" him. I didn't do shit!!!! Our relationship was fine up until 2 weeks ago! He just suddenly told me to leave him alone. He was so harsh about it too! Then he started telling me I acted like such a bitch. I didn't do anything wrong!!! He blew things way out of proportion after I just let him know nicely that I felt we needed to spend some time alone together because we're always with our friends.
I don't know, he's probably insane...
I've decided not to hold any grudges against him. It's better that I don't add any more drama into my life. We're still friends. I really don't feel comfortable hugging him though. I was just giving him a handshake when he left yesterday and he got all pissed at me! He was like, "What the hell's up with the handshake??? Just give me a hug!" And then he just grabs me by the waist and hugs me...
That was very uncomfortable and unexpected of him since he was the one that basically wanted nothing to do with me during the final days of our relationship. I'm ok right now. I actually felt so happy when I ended it for good! But I'm just worried about him though. He's been acting strange lately with our friends. I will confront him about that later.

Susan who?
oh the fickle finger of fame ;-p

Who is Diversity??????????

Stavros flatley should have won

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[b]StoneColdClassicQueen wrote: [/b]

Me and my bf are over for good....
Yeah, he said all this crap about how I "hurt" him. I didn't do shit!!!! Our relationship was fine up until 2 weeks ago! He just suddenly told me to leave him alone. He was so harsh about it too! Then he started telling me I acted like such a bitch. I didn't do anything wrong!!! He blew things way out of proportion after I just let him know nicely that I felt we needed to spend some time alone together because we're always with our friends.
I don't know, he's probably insane...
I've decided not to hold any grudges against him. It's better that I don't add any more drama into my life. We're still friends. I really don't feel comfortable hugging him though. I was just giving him a handshake when he left yesterday and he got all pissed at me! He was like, "What the hell's up with the handshake??? Just give me a hug!" And then he just grabs me by the waist and hugs me...
That was very uncomfortable and unexpected of him since he was the one that basically wanted nothing to do with me during the final days of our relationship. I'm ok right now. I actually felt so happy when I ended it for good! But I'm just worried about him though. He's been acting strange lately with our friends. I will confront him about that later.[/QUOTE]

Relationships are no good. So forget about him. It's nothing but trouble and everyone is psychotic somehow. Take Freddie's advice... do the three F's... "Find 'em, Fuck 'em, and Forget 'em!"

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[b]its_a_hard_life wrote: [/b]

[b]I love my new Rolling Stones dog-tag necklace that I got from Madame Tussauds yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!! [img=/images/smiley/msn/teeth_smile.gif][/img]
i bet it aint like the one you got at Camden,right? lol





[/b][/QUOTE] i bet it aint like the one you got at Camden,right? lol

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[b]Sweet Insanity wrote: [/b]

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[b]StoneColdClassicQueen wrote: [/b]



Me and my bf are over for good....
Yeah, he said all this crap about how I "hurt" him. I didn't do shit!!!! Our relationship was fine up until 2 weeks ago! He just suddenly told me to leave him alone. He was so harsh about it too! Then he started telling me I acted like such a bitch. I didn't do anything wrong!!! He blew things way out of proportion after I just let him know nicely that I felt we needed to spend some time alone together because we're always with our friends.
I don't know, he's probably insane...
I've decided not to hold any grudges against him. It's better that I don't add any more drama into my life. We're still friends. I really don't feel comfortable hugging him though. I was just giving him a handshake when he left yesterday and he got all pissed at me! He was like, "What the hell's up with the handshake??? Just give me a hug!" And then he just grabs me by the waist and hugs me...
That was very uncomfortable and unexpected of him since he was the one that basically wanted nothing to do with me during the final days of our relationship. I'm ok right now. I actually felt so happy when I ended it for good! But I'm just worried about him though. He's been acting strange lately with our friends. I will confront him about that later.

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Relationships are no good. So forget about him. It's nothing but trouble and everyone is psychotic somehow. Take Freddie's advice... do the three F's... "Find 'em, Fuck 'em, and Forget 'em!"
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Jake's definition of the three Fs... Follow 'em, Force yourself on 'em and Frow the body in a lake.

fatty.

[i][b]I'm somewhat amused at how foreign this forum seems to me now and how many people I can still recognise from a couple of years ago.
It's strange. [/b][/i]

Oooh, it's that silly emo kid!

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[b]Freya is quietly judging you. wrote: [/b]

Oooh, it's that silly emo kid![/QUOTE]



Refering to me?
...
I wasnt emo when I was on here a few years ago -_-