I KNOW I was wrong but STILL... rgh.

This is jacked directly from my journal (it's long, I'm so sorry and I do have a bit of a potty mouth):

How I could not wait to get home and write in this little journal of mine. Yesterday, I'm sitting in class and two people, we'll call them Phoebe and Sally, were talking about my friend and we'll call her Kylie. They were saying some very mean shit about Kylie and when I saw Kylie at the end of the day, I reported it back to her as a friend should. Or should they? Kylie got very angry at what Phoebe said and was shocked that Phoebe would say these things about her since they're friends. I made sure that Kylie knew that when she was going to speak to Phoebe, NOT to mention my name! There's no reason to.

So, I come in this morning and ask Kylie how things went with Phoebe and she said that it was a big misunderstanding and they talked things out. I found that to be pretty interesting but didn't give it a second thought.

Come last period, I'm walking in front of Phoebe, Sally and, uh, Dylan (not his name of course) and they start saying THE most obnoxious shit obviously directed to me. They were saying how people shouldn't ever tell other people what they hear in class because they don't know what they're talking about, they weren't talking to me, I wasn't involved blahblahblah, but I pretended not to hear them.

Ignorance works, doesn't it?

Since there was a substitute, we sat around answering questions and all of a sudden I hear Sally say, "Let's play Hangman!" And Phoebe starts naming letters which spelled out, in order, "Erica is a big mouth". Whaaaaaat! Fucking RETARDED! And they continued to talk about me but meanwhile Dylan is telling them to shut up because he wanted to do his work.

LAST TIME I TELL KYLIE ANYTHING.

I call my mom when I got home and told her the story and she sighed. She was like, "We've been through this before. You cannot get involved because it makes you seem like the bad one." Sure, I may be the bad one for reporting it to Kylie and being a tattletale, but shouldn't she know if her friend was talking about her?

Am I wrong here? Whatttthefuck! You really don't know who you can trust in this school, rather, in life. I don't know how the fuck I can make friends when I get to college with apparent trust issues arising here. My friend Madeline agrees with me, that people don't know when to keep their mouth shut and it's the honest to God truth-- ESPECIALLY in my school.

YES-- I contribute to the gossip. But I also have to know who I'm talking to. I could name examples but it's not relevant. Point is-- who can you trust? Only yourself.

How old are you, rhapsody?

Don't worry, I ain't a pervert.

Well, I am, but not like that.

Hahaha... I'm 17-- can't you tell? It's ALLLL drama.

Ah, you're old enough then.

I think me and you are going to get along just fine...

Let me compliment you on your writing and spelling. If I was your teacher, and let's face it - who wouldn't want to be taught a thing or two by Professor Flashy? - I would be delighted to grade you an A+.

Flashy, that's so nice of you! :D I do like to write properly in my journal. I want to able to understand what I wrote when I look back on it... and I absolutely want to write when I get older!

But what are your thoughts on my stupidity and this situation?

Deary me. Sounds like these ppl aren't worth the bother.
Flashman get out of my garden. I can see the light reflecting off your binoculas.

aaaaaaaahhhh...teenagers

My dear Erica, I don't believe you could ever be accused of being stupid.

My advice to you would be this: Follow your heart. And if a certain strapping chap with fine whiskers and a twinkle in his eyes, who goes by the name of Flashman ever crosses your path, be an angel and buy him a drink.

If you could shag him also - all the better.

Yessss teenagers, I'm one of them and I'm sick of them.
And they are so not worth the bother, these people... I just want them to GROW UP!

And to dear old Flashman-- first Mex, now you? Goodness.

[QUOTE][QUOTENAME]Catgoddess wrote: [/QUOTENAME]
Flashman get out of my garden. I can see the light reflecting off your binoculas. [/QUOTE]

You know you love it.

"first Mex, now you? Goodness"

Flashman doesn't have anything better than me, he's an old fart

he's such a pervert, I would have never asked your age, you look old enough

Mex, please. You will only ever be the pupil.

By the way Erica - I just clicked on your profile, saw your picture and remembered who you were.

Your name is definitely on the list.

"Mex, please. You will only ever be the pupil."

True professor,

now a toast to the birds (pollos) all over the world

I do recognise some of that. I turn 17 myself, in only about two weeks, but fortunately I had this period over and done with long ago. Actually I was never so into it all, I had a wonderful talent when it came to talking myself out of any mistake I might have done (and I also did rather few). Doesn't it help to talk with these people? If I was in a similar situation, I would simply talk my way out of it. Exclaim rather loudly that I only did what I thought was right, when I hear someone say such things about a friend of mine, I inform that friend. What's wrong with that? Might have gotten it wrong, but to your ears it indeed sounded bad. And how about this--was it Kylie?-- who had to tell on you that you were the one informing her, how much friendship is there in that?

Sure, I see certain similarities to my classmates from two years ago, but this is so tragic I think we were done with it by 7th grade. Your school sounds rather awful, to tell the truth.