Thanks again, everyone. This is probably more support than I've recieved from my friends so far. You are all very kind, and I am touched. I mean it.
I appreciate your thoughtfulness digging that link up...I can't do quiet songs just now, though. My mum had Queen's Only The Good Die Young blaring on the upstairs speakers. I had to run up to shut it off and throw on some Alice Cooper..."The World Needs Guts."
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Listening to some of your favourite music to take your mind off things is a very good thing to do Jess.
Don't forget, we are always here for you.
Don't forget, we are always here for you.
I'm really sorry for you, Jessica. I don't think I can actually say anything that hasn't been said yet, but if you need anything and you feel I can be useful, you know my e-mail addy, you know when I'm normally on AIM, and specially, you know you can count on me whenever you need. :)
*EDIT* Ah, and like other people have already said... No reason to be sorry. :) You've always contributed in a positive way to the boards, time for them to contribute to you in some way.
*EDIT* Ah, and like other people have already said... No reason to be sorry. :) You've always contributed in a positive way to the boards, time for them to contribute to you in some way.
I'm very sorry for your loss. Believe me, time will make things less painful. I witnessed my father die two years ago. The replays in your head WILL subside, and things WILL get easier. Hang in there, Jessica.
sorry for your loss. it's okay to post it here. you know you have a support group within this wacky forum. anyway, i know that if my grandma/grandpa died, i'd react somewhat like that.
once again, i give my condolences.
once again, i give my condolences.
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you and your family get better soon. Death is as natural as life, it will happen to everyone one day. But you still have all the good memories and that's what keeps your Grandpa alive.
You have my feelings
You have my feelings
"Jess The Mess" aka KillerQueen840
Thanks for making my tired, dry eyes come to life, wet and with sadness that I'm quite familar with.
My grandpa, I remember as a very strong man although I heard he had 4 heart attacks in his time, 4!
When my grandma passed away of cancer, my grandfather lasted 2, maybe 3 years, no more.
He was a robust, compact man, shorter than I at 5' 6" tall that I am.
Within less than 1 year after my grandmas death, grandpas belt, well, he would pull it tighter, his pants didn't fit, he was noticeably thinner and didn't eat well.
He had prostrate cancer for many a year and he decided, nearly 90 at the time, to let it go.
I was against that, but alas, it was his choice.
It's natures justice in the mind of a honest man for the "sins" he believes he should pass for. Thus, he, my grandpa let his cancer continue.
When he passed, I, my brother Troy, we were with him in a "not a nursing home" but a place where senior citizens can live peacefully in their own apartments or studios, have group meals or alone.
He was in immense pain and like your grandpa, he had morphine, a patch.
Tears were not enough and the air of sadness and grief permeated the area.
To this day, I really don't know why but.
At his gravesite, nobody planted grass, everyone expected the town to do this.
"Where there is nothing and seemingly nothing to grow with, life can and will live."
As a employee of a lawn care company, on my way to work well north of Plymouth, MA. I took the company vehicle and stopped at grandpas grave.
It was there with sand over him, that I laid fertilizer, lime and grass seed.
That site to this day is alive with thick grass.
It is scientifically believed that soil is needed most of the time to grow grass.
Grass can grow on pavement.
-Analogy.
When my Uncle passed away in 2003, all I could do was perform as a musician to express my grief.
Thus, "Teddy's Song" exists.
If you choose to listen, you are most welcome, "Teddy's Song" streams at http://www.mahlers.com
Life was my rehearsal, nothing more, nothing less.
--Teddy's Song--
(In loving memory of Uncle Harold T. Mahler "Teddy")
October 2003
From "W. K. Mahler"
Well, I think it's time
Mmmmmm, mmmmmm, oohhhh
I know it's time
Brother of mine
Mother of mine
Father of mine
I know i'm home
In time
Daughter of mine
Daughter of mine
Daughter of mine
Son of mine
Mmmm hmmm mmm
I know you know
I know you know
I know you know
Oh I know
I know you know
It's time
From the heart we shared
From the souls we bare
From the shadows to the light
From the daylight through to the night
I will be there with you
Wherever you are
Whatever you do
I will be there to guide you if you will guide me to
I am there for you
You were there for me too
Together we beat as one
Together we live under the sun
Oh together we live as one
Ah together we live as one
Together we are as one
Together we have just begun to make our lives
To make our lives
To make our lives
To live our lives
To lead our lives
We shall arise
Mmmmm
Together as one
Together as one
Mother, father, daughters and son
Together as one
I'm walking with my brother
I'm holding hands with my mother
I'm guided by my father and Jesus and God
I am with the Angels
I am living in Heaven
But you know I'm around
You know where I am found
I'm inside you
I have pride in you
Mmmm
Together as one
Together as one
Together as one
Together as one
I love you
----Peace to you Jess The Mess.
William K. Mahler
Thanks for making my tired, dry eyes come to life, wet and with sadness that I'm quite familar with.
My grandpa, I remember as a very strong man although I heard he had 4 heart attacks in his time, 4!
When my grandma passed away of cancer, my grandfather lasted 2, maybe 3 years, no more.
He was a robust, compact man, shorter than I at 5' 6" tall that I am.
Within less than 1 year after my grandmas death, grandpas belt, well, he would pull it tighter, his pants didn't fit, he was noticeably thinner and didn't eat well.
He had prostrate cancer for many a year and he decided, nearly 90 at the time, to let it go.
I was against that, but alas, it was his choice.
It's natures justice in the mind of a honest man for the "sins" he believes he should pass for. Thus, he, my grandpa let his cancer continue.
When he passed, I, my brother Troy, we were with him in a "not a nursing home" but a place where senior citizens can live peacefully in their own apartments or studios, have group meals or alone.
He was in immense pain and like your grandpa, he had morphine, a patch.
Tears were not enough and the air of sadness and grief permeated the area.
To this day, I really don't know why but.
At his gravesite, nobody planted grass, everyone expected the town to do this.
"Where there is nothing and seemingly nothing to grow with, life can and will live."
As a employee of a lawn care company, on my way to work well north of Plymouth, MA. I took the company vehicle and stopped at grandpas grave.
It was there with sand over him, that I laid fertilizer, lime and grass seed.
That site to this day is alive with thick grass.
It is scientifically believed that soil is needed most of the time to grow grass.
Grass can grow on pavement.
-Analogy.
When my Uncle passed away in 2003, all I could do was perform as a musician to express my grief.
Thus, "Teddy's Song" exists.
If you choose to listen, you are most welcome, "Teddy's Song" streams at http://www.mahlers.com
Life was my rehearsal, nothing more, nothing less.
--Teddy's Song--
(In loving memory of Uncle Harold T. Mahler "Teddy")
October 2003
From "W. K. Mahler"
Well, I think it's time
Mmmmmm, mmmmmm, oohhhh
I know it's time
Brother of mine
Mother of mine
Father of mine
I know i'm home
In time
Daughter of mine
Daughter of mine
Daughter of mine
Son of mine
Mmmm hmmm mmm
I know you know
I know you know
I know you know
Oh I know
I know you know
It's time
From the heart we shared
From the souls we bare
From the shadows to the light
From the daylight through to the night
I will be there with you
Wherever you are
Whatever you do
I will be there to guide you if you will guide me to
I am there for you
You were there for me too
Together we beat as one
Together we live under the sun
Oh together we live as one
Ah together we live as one
Together we are as one
Together we have just begun to make our lives
To make our lives
To make our lives
To live our lives
To lead our lives
We shall arise
Mmmmm
Together as one
Together as one
Mother, father, daughters and son
Together as one
I'm walking with my brother
I'm holding hands with my mother
I'm guided by my father and Jesus and God
I am with the Angels
I am living in Heaven
But you know I'm around
You know where I am found
I'm inside you
I have pride in you
Mmmm
Together as one
Together as one
Together as one
Together as one
I love you
----Peace to you Jess The Mess.
William K. Mahler
((((((HUGS))))))
That sounded painfully like a deja vu to my grandmother's death in 2001. I know how you are feeling, and I know that nothing can ease the troubles, except for talking about it and being sad. If you swallow it, it will eat you, that's what I learned the hard way...
I'm very sorry for your loss. I know the feelings you have. Time will help the pain but you'll never forget the good memories. Try and focus on those. Your Grandpa would want it that way.
Hi Jessica:
I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there and remember the happy times with your grandfather. I'm sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Cindy
I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there and remember the happy times with your grandfather. I'm sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Cindy
Dear Jess
I just couldn't help but remembering that you were quite concerned about your grandpa's health deteriorating, and the fact that this vacation could perhaps be the last one with him. Remember also when you told me that the most important thing would be to enjoy everyday with your grandpa to the fullest? Well, as tragical and horrible it must be to face a situation like the one you had to endure in the past days, just remember what was so precious about spending time with your grandpa up until the very moment where he just couldn't physically respond anymore.
Not everybody has the chance to leave this world being happy, at peace, and surrounded by the people that they love so much. Your grandpa passed away having all those things, and as much of odd as this might sound, there's no better way for anyone of us to leave this world.
Your grandpa is no longer present in a physical form, but in spirit there will always be a part of him inside of you. Just remember that the last thing your grandpa would want is your heart to be fulfilled with sadness and sorrow. Keep him in your mind and soul, but in a positive way that would allow you to cherish all the happy memories of growing up with him without dwelling on the fact that he's gone.
If you want to cry, then cry. Sometimes it's better to let things out. It's the natural reaction to loss, but remember that we shouldn't allow anything to bring us down to the point of breakdown. I know that you're a very strong girl, and as difficult as it must be to deal with this, you'll get through it.
Keep your head up girl!
Your grandpa couldn't have been more proud of having a grandaughter like you.
<< HUGS >>
P.S. Sorry for not responding before. Ever since we moved to the new apartment we were without internet. We just got it hooked on.
I just couldn't help but remembering that you were quite concerned about your grandpa's health deteriorating, and the fact that this vacation could perhaps be the last one with him. Remember also when you told me that the most important thing would be to enjoy everyday with your grandpa to the fullest? Well, as tragical and horrible it must be to face a situation like the one you had to endure in the past days, just remember what was so precious about spending time with your grandpa up until the very moment where he just couldn't physically respond anymore.
Not everybody has the chance to leave this world being happy, at peace, and surrounded by the people that they love so much. Your grandpa passed away having all those things, and as much of odd as this might sound, there's no better way for anyone of us to leave this world.
Your grandpa is no longer present in a physical form, but in spirit there will always be a part of him inside of you. Just remember that the last thing your grandpa would want is your heart to be fulfilled with sadness and sorrow. Keep him in your mind and soul, but in a positive way that would allow you to cherish all the happy memories of growing up with him without dwelling on the fact that he's gone.
If you want to cry, then cry. Sometimes it's better to let things out. It's the natural reaction to loss, but remember that we shouldn't allow anything to bring us down to the point of breakdown. I know that you're a very strong girl, and as difficult as it must be to deal with this, you'll get through it.
Keep your head up girl!
Your grandpa couldn't have been more proud of having a grandaughter like you.
<< HUGS >>
P.S. Sorry for not responding before. Ever since we moved to the new apartment we were without internet. We just got it hooked on.
( Double Post )
"Not everybody has the chance to leave this world being happy, at peace, and surrounded by the people that they love so much. Your grandpa passed away having all those things, and as much of odd as this might sound, there's no better way for anyone of us to leave this world."
- well said.
- well said.
Jess...
I know what you're going through
when it comes to stress and that stuff.
But you've got my support.
I knew I can always count on you when
I told you my personal stuff.
And you can count on me.
I know what you're going through
when it comes to stress and that stuff.
But you've got my support.
I knew I can always count on you when
I told you my personal stuff.
And you can count on me.